Another Day on the Blog Block 2-23-09

It's hard to believe February is almost over. My days seem to drag by with the same thing day in and day out, but when I look at the calendar it seems to just fly by. My days have become so depressing that I just want to scream, although I don't really think that would help. Sometimes I question my own sanity, but in reality it isn't my sanity that's slipping.

Dealing with my MIL and all her issues is taking a toll on me though. I seriously need a break. My husband is feeling it too, so...this weekend we are going out of town. Just the 2 of us, and I'm so excited. We're not doing anything really exciting, but just getting away, just the 2 of us will be great. There's a hunting thing the hubby wants to go to in SC, but I'll take anything to just get away.

I understand my MIL has issues, I knew that 4 years ago. But, dealing with her flare ups is not easy on any of us. Being bipolar, manic depressive, suffering from anxiety, chronic pain, dementia and alzheimers really makes things difficult. I hear the complaining all the time, but when she gets the whinnies and squawlies I'm at my wits end. I can't sit all day with a 74 year old woman in my lap rocking her like a little kid who feels bad. For one thing she's too big and for the other she expects to be petted all the time and stubs up like a spoiled child when she doesn't get her way.

She has fits when my husband comes home and doesn't speak to her first. She has fits when the phone rings and she doesn't get to talk to whoever it is, doesn't matter if its a telemarketer or the family. She has a fit if I go to my mothers or the store, and she has a fit if I make her go with me or if I leave her at home. She has a fit if I buy something for George and don't get her something too. Example: She wants a cellphone because I got a new one.....I got her one, she doesn't know how to use it and now she wants a new one, says the one I got her isn't any good - how would she know if she can't even turn it on.

Then we have the bad attitude days as I call them, this is where she is constantly making snide remarks to me. Like, "I just don't understand how you can be so stupid and do all that for the school when they don't even pay you. You shouldn't let people use you, and you can't be here when I need you if you're always gone." She doesn't like it when I do things with the booster club for the sports programs at school, mainly because I'm not sitting here with her.

So, I'm really looking forward to this weekend. And......Then, the 2nd week of March I'll be going to the lakehouse for spring break. I've told my son if he has to practice all week he'll have to stay home and get his uncle to take him and pick him up.

Well, time to get a move on. I have to take the MIL to the doctor today. Regular check up, but I dread the sitting and waiting. And of course she's nervous about going out in public, and excited to get out, and talking about what she's going to make the doctor do. Yeah, it's gonna be a blast.

I hope you're doing well, in whatever you're doing! Blessings and hugs!